It\’s been so long…

Just read my last post – seems like so long ago. To quickly bring you up to speed, the tumor was not benign (it\’s a grade III anaplastic astrocytoma – Google it), I had two surgeries to remove as much tumor as possible, I\’ve since had radiation and am currently on chemo (low dose for one year, with MRIs every two months to see how things are progressing). Blah, blah, blah…plenty more about all of this in future blogs. What I really want to say today is…

Cancer sucks. PNH sucks. Chemo sucks. Losing your independence (and then trying desperately to regain it) sucks. But my babies are happy, funny, beautiful, and GROWING (in fact, they\’ll be nine months tomorrow – I can\’t believe it!). My family is amazing beyond words. My friends are incredible. Strangers have been so kind and giving. I am blessed. Everything I\’m going through is so surreal, but I know I\’m not alone. And you wouldn\’t believe how much knowing that helps.

Life is beautiful. And I\’m trying to be grateful, and happy, and optimistic all the time. But I\’m only human, and I don\’t put too much pressure on myself.

I didn\’t want to blog about all of this, but today I feel like I should. For anyone who is curious, but more importantly, for people going through even some of this stuff. While there is support out there, I want to contribute to that and give anyone scouring the Internet for answers, for hope, comfort, support, and love if I can. If I can be that shining light for even one person, this will all be worth it. So here I am. I know that if I\’m going to do this, I\’ve got lots of gaps to fill in, but this is at least a start.